Walk two moons

Walk two moons

“Don't judge a man until you have walked two moons in his moccasins.” Love’s a lot easier when you take the time to consider why someone else does the things they do. Especially things that for whatever reason just piss you off. It’s tricky. It requires you to fuck off everything you know and to imagine what life is like through their eyes. All their memories of their entire life leading up to that particular moment, affecting the way they think and feel and process and speak and move. You will always fuck this up no matter what, but that’s okay because it’s still fun to imagine those things.

Getting back to how doing this can help you love someone, it’s basically stupid as fuck to think that you know a god damn thing about anyone. Ever. Unless they show you and you’re open to what they have to say. Even then you’re only seeing a fraction of a fraction of a fraction of a percent of who they are. It’s also only what they’re choosing to show you in that particular moment. It also has to work it’s way past your own ego which carries along with it assumptions and condescension when it gets out of check.

In any case, everything else that influences how you treat them comes from what you choose to interpret and/or what you choose to believe. The choice part. Pretty important. And when you love someone, You have only a couple of options. You can project a bunch of bullshit onto them that is completely absent of any context or actual truth. Zero truth. None in moments like that. Or you can choose to try something different.

You can choose to accept that you have no fucking clue why they do the things they do sometimes. At the same time you can show them (at every opportunity you have because why the fuck not) that you respect them unconditionally and would never belittle how they choose to get through life on their own terms. When you really god damn mean it, you can tell them that you love them. You just love the shit out of them and you’re grateful as balls that they came into your life and affected you deeply.

All that thought on one person. When you get to mind-blowing is when you try to practice this kind of acceptance with each and every person you encounter in your life. Ever. You refuse to make a definitive judgement about them without them giving you insight first. You’ll fail hard at times. It’s never perfect. It’s a process. It’s fun as shit. You’ll look and feel like an asshole sometimes when you’re not. It’s challenging. It requires focus and it makes you strong as fuck.

When you make the choice to assume that everyone else is on some level as fucked up and hurt as you are about some things that have happened in their lives, and that it’s okay to feel like that sometimes, it just gets a little easier. When you experience the sort of calm that comes with keeping your side of the street clean, you don’t feel obligated to show up and shower everyone you love in your life with appreciation and respect. You just want to because it feels fucking good to. And you’re not what some routinely confuse with emo: disingenuous. You’re just happy as shit for the most part.

-Adim Premani

Music and shit

I think that, that definitely day-to-day life whether you have an awesome life or shitty life; whatever it may be, you kinda just need to shut down and turn off and I think that, music is for me personally; exercise and music is a huge component in staying sane and a break from reality is just needed I think on a day to day basis. Whether you don’t like your job, or your family, or your friends, or your girlfriend and you are fighting, or somebody is picking on you, or what ever it may be; you need to just get away. And I think that instead of fixating on all the things that you don’t like or that make you angry you kinda just have to step back and say wow, my problems are minuet when compared to the bigger picture when you think of all the people on the earth, when you think of all the space out there in the universe that we know nothing about, when you think about all these things that don’t relate to you it tends to make you more humble; because, you are one small spec in the grand scheme of life and I know at this particular juncture it may make you mad that someone ate the last pop-tart but I assure you that, there are bigger fish to fry when it comes to time and space and all that has happened, and all that will happen and I guess I don’t want to be-little peoples problems I am sure that there are many horrible situations out there that I know nothing about and I am not pretending to know anything about them but this is an exercise I think in taking a step back, taking a breathe realizing that something that you may think is a big deal may not be such a big deal. And I think that the only way for you to fully to solve, and correct, and move to something that you view as right in your bones is to be in a position where you are calm, you are centered, and you are collected because making any sort of decision when you are flying off the handle is a definitely a recipe for disaster. I think that if you don’t take time for yourself, don’t take time to breathe, and chill you’re going to experience frustration and I think that life, again like I have said before, is way to short to fixate on things that bother you I think that its very easy and, my self included, I have a very difficult time letting go of things that bother me, and I am trying my very best to grow as a person and I mean you never stop growing, you never stop learning and I think that’s something that is somewhat intimidating/refreshing in that your never going to be at a point where you’re the perfect version of yourself. Its just not going to happen and life is definitely a process and its never going to end and you’re always going to constantly try to do your best and you know what you’re never going to be perfect and I think that the pursuit of that perfection is more important that the perfection itself and the better you are as a person, the better the world is overall. And I think that a lot of people tend to be very selfish, tend to think “me, me, me, me, me” but what you should be thinking about is how can I be better; so, that I can contribute to the world around me, the world is not all about me the world is not all about you, it’s a universal thing.

Girls......

I dont understand em... they are frustrated... then sad.... then pissed...... the happy.... then hateful... whats the deal?? the are so confusing...

At this point i dont know who im writing for.... its just a way to vent my feelings and a place to put my life on paper/ virtual paper

I just re-Jailbroke my ipod.....stupid ipod

GAhh.... Stupid science.....

I had to do a project for science about cartoon physics......... God awful. In other school news I finished my Digital photography project today too....way easier that science

My hair

I just realized i hadnt cut my hair since late april.......

Im sad.....

I dont know why i feel sad right now.......